Time to unlock, unload and deal sis… oh and grab that drink!!

Can we talk about loss?!?! So the past year and a half I’ve been dealing with it a bit more openly than I normally would. Truth be told, I’ve lost many times before… it just hits differently each time. 
I’m a Gemini and true to form, you can see a great deal on the outside but it takes a lot for those layers to come off and reveal my true thoughts. I overthink like crazy and often get so caught up in my thoughts… most times, I hold it all in. 

So, you may be asking yourself “if this is you, why blog?” Well, I’ve actually signed up to start a blog from 2012. Yeah 8 years ago. At this point, “Miss Gem” (you know, that voice in your head) creeped in and shut me all the way down. Over time, I’ve been unlocking my thoughts with whomever decided that how I feel is important enough. So now, I said it’s about that time. I’m getting comfortable and it’s only taken me 8 years!! 

I’ve dealt with loss as a child and the reality is, what I’ve lost as a child I vaguely remember how it made me feel initially. My parents separated when I was in 8th grade (around 13yrs old) then finally divorced while I was in 11th grade (16yrs old). At that time, my biggest loss was my father in the home. In my eyes, the separation and divorce was for the best though.

People say time heals but in all honesty, I believe it’s memories that help heal any broken or missing links that we’ve ever dealt with. The more you are aware of the good memories, the less hurt or pain the loss causes to you. I’ve been on a journey, reloading memories surrounding all that I’ve lost and it’s been a relief. Loss carries a great deal of burden if you haven’t had closure though. Closure for me has either been – being able to come to an understanding that I will never get it or having the hard conversation with the person whom you associate that loss with. So for me, each time the loss was significant I’ve had to deal with what I consider closure.  

Have you ever gone through something and felt like you needed closure in order to move forward? Have you thought about what form that “closure” needs to come in for you to feel satisfied? Maybe you’ve also lost a parent, a friendship or even a job? Whatever the loss is though, please believe that you are in the exact place that God intends for you to be. So about that closure, either have that understanding with yourself or set a date to speak with whomever you associate it with.